Have you ever loved some one or something so much that it just consumes you? That is how i feel about my family i know weired huh for those of you who really know me this is an odd thing i know. But i was watching a movie last night and it was about a mother who was dying of breast cancer and she and her teenage daughter were affraid that they wouldnt ever really know each other anyway it was sad so when i went in to tuck all my kids in to bed i just look at them sleeping and cant help but to feel so much love for them that it just consumes me for a minute. You know how there are girls or women out there that say " I know that i was born to be a mother." well thats not me at all i didnt ever feel that way but i dont think that you have to feel that way to wanna just be a mom, I think that it is awesome that women feel that way dont get me wrong but those of you who know me know thats not me at all!! But lately I look up to those women who just know i am so nervouse about raising my kids in this world it scares me. Every night when i go in to tuck in averi I just sit and look at her, i find myself loving her so much it hurts and at the same time saying a little prayer for her that she will be so strong in this world that i brought her into, that she can make it and be so strong, but mostly to stand up for what we believe I just think that its gonna be so much scarier for them!!! Well i dont really know the reason for this blog except for the fact that i just had these thoughts and i wanted to share them!!
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A NIGHT OF 100 LAUGHS AND SO MUCH MORE!!!

Me and My Hubba Bubba!!!!!!

Carrie and dave sooooooooooo cute!!

Kris and Sarah soooooooo hott!

Me and My peeps just like old times!!

well a couple of weekends ago we had a date night with carrie, dave, sarah, and kris we had so much fun after a diner at the Road house we went cosmic bowling!! Even though it was way to expensive and not as cool as i remember it to be it was so much fun i havnt laughed so hard in a long time we all had tons of fun as you can see in our pictures thanks carrie and sarah we definantly need to do it again!!!

LAST YEAR I KNOW!!

K well these pics are from last year but i am so ready for Christmas i cant even stand it i want to decorate my lovely new house with lots and lots of Christmas stuff but mike keeps telling me no!! EVERY day he tells me no, that i cant decorate until the day after thanksgiving!! BAH HUMBUG!! but these are just cute pics i didn't have a blog last year so here are some fun pics!!

HAPPY LATE HALLOWEEN!!

Well my sisters all were at my house and our kids got to go trick or treating all together it was tons of fun! The 2 genies are kali's girls and the super girl and ducky are my sister kristas the wizard of oz crew are mine it was so much fun!!




Hey well i know this is a couple of days late but things have been crazy busy!! here are just a few halloween pictures it was so much fun my little scarecrow was the last man standing he fought for every piece of candy that he got. It eas so much fun it seems like the older that they get the funner halloween gets!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH BRITTANNIA

ok well I decided that it was time for a change!! As most of you all know i am one that needs alot of change in my life and since i cant move every six months anymore then this is my next best thing!! So i went to my wonderful most bestes friend Brittannia's house in poky and i told her kinda what i wanted and told her to do what ever she wanted and this is the fabulous masterpiece that she created!!! SHE IS AWESOME and I'm not just saying that she really is!!

This is a horrible picture but you can see my hair and that is what matters gotta love fall!! Anyway thank you so much britt!!

HERES A NEW ONE FOR YA!!!

Ok well here is a new post for you! I wasn't going to post about this but sarah talked me into it so here it goes......

Alright so yesterday i was driving down sunny side and all my kids were asleep, As usual i wasn't paying attention while i was driving and i had to very quickly slam on my brakes!! well averi was siting in her seat and the most wonderful responsible mother that i am i forgot to buckle her in her seat belt, so as i slammed on my breaks i hear this big thump and i look back and averi was on the ground whining. Then all the sudden she stood up and all she said was "OH MY HELL", then she got back in her seat and went right back to sleep. I know that some of you are wondering where she may have heard this well it is true ocasionaly those word do slip out of my mouth once or four times a day!!!

Well there is my story i hope that you enjoyed it as much as i did when it happened and as i always say never a dull moment in my life being a mother of 4 children 4 and under!!!
I STILL LOVE MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH!!!!!!!!!

MY SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!

Alright well sarah always get to hear about all my exciting things that happen in my house all day, and let me tell you there are tons. So today i was in the kitchen on the phone talking to sarah and i was getting ready you make lunch, well i needed a pan and it was in the dishwasher and so i open the door and this is what i find..... yes those are socks that got washed in the dishwasher!! i know gross but hey when a 4,3,2,and 10 month old are left at home with their dad this is what happens oh how i LOVE my life!!!!!